What is going on????

 The only thing I do know for sure, is that today I was supposed to be in Edinburgh, Scotland.  My flight was cancelled by El Al, and then, exactly one day later the airways were reopened!  When I told this to an art teacher yesterday she said - "but think how lucky you are to have remained here in 40 degree heat, dust pollution making breathing difficult - not knowing what is going on, instead! "  What we do know is that we are feel that we are being visited upon by all the horrors of this planet of ours - 

A tenuous ceasefire - two now - with Iran and Lebanon.  Horrendous wars and suffering with absolutely nothing having been achieved.  I am not clear at all about what was supposed to be achieved - certainly the architects of these horrors are neither explaining, nor in fact communicating to us.  OBVIOUSLY Iran and Hizbolla have an endless supply of weapons - missiles of all sorts, that they have used very well.  The people in the north who were encouraged to return to their villages, towns, and farms have spent this entire time in shelters -  I wont and can't go on about this - that is left to the talking heads who also don't know what is going on.

The only thing I am aware of is that all the people I know feel like we are in a suspended state of something or other - our nervous systems are shattered.  We all jump at the slightest sound - no one is smiling.  Grimly I go the gym and workout.  The pool has reopened (it was shut because it is very dangerous to get out of a swimming pool and run to a safe room - so grimly people swim. We do our various activities grimly - Arabic lessons are a wild circus - shouting, interrupting, opining, knowing. Every time I go I think, I am NOT continuing, yet for some unknown reasons I find myself back in class once a week. People are trying to catch up with hairdressers, doctors appointments, shopping, - life in fact - waiting for the next round.

As I stated, I have not too much to say - in fact, I have nothing to say - just wanted to show that I am still here, and care for those who read this.